Hey everyone. If I could pick just one word to describe this week for Sophie Kate, I would say calm. How wonderful to finally be able to say that we had a calm week. You know, I have said before that I would love the opportunity to be bored, we certainly haven’t gotten there yet, but I am thrilled with calm. Sophie Kate of course still did all her therapy this week and has worked really hard on head and neck strength as well as on her skateboard, movin’ those legs, and has had lots of stretches and massages.
SK has also experienced her first carline drop off and pick up at Cooper and Jacob’s school. As all of you know that live here that is an experience in and of itself and not necessarily always a very pleasant one. I realized that I haven’t done carpool since November of 2007, can’t say I’m real thrilled to be thrown back into that madness, but I am very thankful for my great friends that covered for me all of last year, no questions asked. The first day back in carpool line really put into perspective the huge sacrifice they made for me. Thanks again Misty and Amanda that is true friendship!
This week has been a bit subdued and introspective for me. Last weekend one of Sophie Kate’s online friends passed away unexpectedly. My heart is so sad for this precious family, who has actually adopted children like Sophie into their family, talk about crowns laid up for them in heaven! It has just spoken to me how fragile these children can still be whether they physically appear that way or not. You know, I just don’t know what to make of all this most of the time. I keep telling myself every morning the things I know to be true. I say them out loud to myself sometimes just to hear them because I don’t always feel them: God loves me (He loves you too), God loves Sophie Kate (even more than Chad and I do), God is in control (not me), He will give me the strength I need to get through each day. To me this situation seems impossilbe, to God nothing is impossible. He is effecting and changing not only SK but also everyone and everything around her, whether we want to be changed or not, b/c sometimes I’m just so tired of it all and I really want to answer the question about changing with a really loud “or NOT.” Then I realize that it’s a question that was never really posed to me, it is what has to happen. I am going to follow, it’s just am I going to go quietly or am I going to go kicking and screaming? Hmmm…of course I am going to go kicking and screaming, I just really wish I wouldn’t do that. I wish I could just accept this and move on but that is utterly impossible. This process is beyond words painful and so then I have to come back to what I know is true-God loves me. The thing is I am not the only one He loves. Please pray that those who don’t know our Savior will be changed in some way through Sophie’s life, that God’s love, grace and mercy will shine through.
Please keep this family in your prayers as well that God will comfort them in a mighty way during this time. And yes, Sophie Kate has online friends, would you have expected anything less from her?
Have a great weekend!